I have been accused of blowing”hot and cold” toward someone.  I know what this means to me.  It means I really don’t like a person and am trying to convince myself to like them or deny the negative fact that I actually dislike them.  I have learned to pick up on it more quickly now but I still find myself trying to talk myself out of disliking someone.  I look for the good and try to over-shadow the bad.   It does not end well when I try to talk myself out of a dislike.  To be true to myself, it would be better if I accepted my dislike of someone and move on.  I don’t have to be mean or unkind to someone I dislike.  I just need to know in my own mind and heart that this is a person I don’t like.  It’s hard for me.  I know, though, when one of these people are bold enough to point out that I run “hot and cold” toward them it’s a huge sign that I need to stop pretending to myself and distance myself from this person.  On some level my instinct has warned me that this person is not a friend and, most likely, is an enemy.  There is one person at work that I know deep down does not like me (and I don’t know why).  She, actually, blows “hot and cold” toward me.  While my best judgement would say, “stay away”, I am still trying to win her over.  Why would I try to win someone over that I know does not like me?  I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I like her.  We will see how this one goes.  I’ll be sure to let you know!  I know I am not her enemy in any way and only want great things for her.  This might lead me to wonder if those I think are my enemies really aren’t.  It’s complicated.  Help! 10/15/2016

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