I’m glad you told me what you told me although it still hurts.  It hurts because I had other plans for you and your life.  It hurts because I can’t protect you.  It hurts because I have to look at every thing that’s happened over the years in a different light.  It hurts because now I know you’ve been struggling alone and I am so sorry you had to figure things out  by yourself.  I wish I could have helped you with this before now.  I wish you had not had to go through this alone.  Now you have accepted yourself and moved forward–for this I am grateful.  Now I will hold you in my heart more than ever.  I have so many questions that I won’t ask because I don’t want to make this any harder for you than it’s already been.  When I realize you’ve been hurting I hurt for you.  I hurt for your past, your present and your future.  I hurt for what is, what was, what will be and what might have been.  I hurt because I worry.  I worry about your health, your safety, your future.  I want life to be good to you and I want nothing but wonderful people in your world.  I never want you to be a target of meanness of any kind. There is nothing that hurts me more than for someone I love to hurt or be hurt.  There is no more desolate feeling than being helpless to help someone I care about so much.  I want nothing but the best for you and whatever I can do to ease your way I will do it.  I will always put your wellbeing above my own.  As long as my heart beats it will be full of nothing but love and respect for you.  I am so proud of you for who you are and the fine person you’ve become.  I’ve always known what a great person you are.  Now I know what a strong person  you are.

love hurts

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